we [ m o v e a l o n g]

[Moony™]

{continued from Hunters Vigil, Novawish tags Wasppaw! xD -tagg you're it-
Also the song is ‘Move Along’ by All American Rejects. I think it fit nicely to what I might post and how it’d go along. ^^ And this is the current song I’m loving.}

n o v a w i s h

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

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Novawish dashed away from the scene, away from Kestrelclaw, Autumn, and the long-dead badger. Wasppaw had gone hunting alone, as in a recommendation. And mostly, it was all her fault. She was the one who made her feelings even worse than before. Although, she believed it wasn’t just her who Wasppaw hated. It wasn’t just her.

With no sense of direction and following Wasppaw’s scent—oh, she could feel the emotions from the trail too. She bit her lower lip, not to get engulfed inside herself, locked in her heart, hugged by old emotions. One time, she heard that the brain controlled everything and when you got the grip, you could control your fears, pain, and emotions. Everything.

From there, she had meant to apologize, almost. Novawish was to regret her thoughts afterword and wiping it cleaner with kinder understanding words. Of course, it wouldn’t be completely healed and there always would be a traceable mark to stay. But as if there was no wound in the first place, hidden, shielded. Something to look different to. An illusion.

When she was sure Wasppaw was close by, seeing her face-to-face would only make her run more, she believed. So with her real true voice, the one softer and lower and not a mimicry of the shadows she said, ”Wasppaw!”

Imagining Wasppaw listening to her helped. She hoped she would hear and she couldn’t be that far away either. She looked around if she would spot a familiar black pelt. ”I want to talk to you. Come. I now regret the words I’ve said and I understand part of your past. Not completely—I’m not you. But I. Know.” She said the words, now echoed in the forest, highly emphasized. As if it was saying “and that is an order” yet at the same time “I trust you; you can too”.

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

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[Bhuvana]

OOC//: ...WOW! That was a-m-a-z-i-n-g!

Wasppaw paused after the shecats words. She tried to stay quiet. Tried to stay firm. Tried not to let the cats words get to her. But, she failed. She turned and followed the voice and scent. Both were calm and almost friendly. Two feelings that no one ever felt when she was around. Never mind directed at her.
"How could you ever understand?" she tried to sound harsh and emotionless, just as she normally did. But her voice was low and in her opinion, pathetic. Almost like a kits. "How can anyone understand? Better yet, why would anyone care? I don't care and you shouldn'y either." She let the lie slide from her lips. Of course she cared. She had always dwelled over her past. Ever since her past had started. But, she wasn't about to allow her mentor, her deputy know she was weak. No, no one would no the pain she held inside. No one.

[Winter]

Kestrelclaw watched as Novawish and Wasp-paw left him and Autumn alone. For some reason, their mentor/apprentice relationship had incited feelings of pride in the tom. And, shockingly, he was proud about somebody else, rather than himself. It was not a custom of the tom to feel this way. He had always put his dignity and superiority infront of everybody else and anything else he did. Pride was his dominant authority and priority. However, in this moment, the balance had changed. He felt honored now that Novawish and Wasp-paw had somewhat managed to sort out their problems and went training. He felt more satisfied to know that he had helped them out. Kestrelclaw could not help a snobbish grin from molding on his face. The sensation was weird. He'd never laugh for the achievement of somebody else, but just for his own achievement. Now he was laughing for what somebody else had done. How quaint.

The tom turned to stare at Autumn. Another thing to be proud of. The tom had made Autumn relinquish her sanguinary feelings and follow the right path. Quite amusing how a creature as vicious as Kestrelclaw had managed to change the aura of so many others. It was an awkward emotion to help the community, when his goal was often to damage the community, but now that he had done the right thing, he had opened his eyes to a new world. Now, he had two choices. The constant struggle of good and bad consumed his thoughts once again, when he had decided before that he'd rather be callous than decent. Kestrelclaw's gaze dropped in uncertaincy. He could still fondle Autumn's prescence, and felt more perturbed that before. The pride he had felt for his clanmates was overwhelming his judgement. Good or bad?

[Moony™]

{Thank you Bhuvana!
And hey Winter! x3
Ooh, this is getting exciting!

n o v a w i s h

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

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Novawish stood, understanding and grasping the words. It reminded her of a disguise first, one of her lessons long ago. A disguise to hide a fact, an illusion of some sort. You could hide the fact that you were different, you were an attacker, or you were hiding your emotions and the way you viewed. There were some cats whom she knew, were only a hollow shell, a ghost, of a life. Who would only politely comment on the good and ignore and look away from the bad, as if it didn’t exist. Who would sit and nod in obedience, but who really wasn’t there.

Wasppaw was hiding, but she understood why. No one would want to have a chat, telling their secrets and their past to someone whom they rather didn’t like. Like me. She dully thought. She felt older and more mature; she would tell her story briefly, in a way in which Wasppaw could relate.
”I comprehend your decision.” She simply replied, her voice calm. It had the cool tone, but the edges of the words were warmer. She had wanted to say ‘understand’ instead of ‘comprehend’, although she wasn’t sure how that word would take in to Wasppaw. It meant the same, but it seemed a different meaning whole.

“A kit is born.” She started, her voice slightly shaking, slightly unsure how to go on. ”It starts from a happy naïve childhood. Then she is betrayed, crossed a loved one, and there—that’s all it took to misshape a happy child to a being we know.”
She did not know if that related more to her than Wasppaw. So she paused, letting the words sink in first.

Unsure of what to go next—burst out her past, her feelings, her life? That was new. Something she’d kept hidden and away from others? Something that became the center of her dead life? Really, she felt like she was Wasppaw—who really cared?
The world seemed as if it was spinning in circles, with her in one side and to the diameter across stood Wasppaw. Going back and forth, gaining momentum. With words. And soon will replies, answers, stories and questions. She hoped.

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

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[Bhuvana]

Wasppaw, whom had been looking through the warrior, made eye contact. Her leaffall orange eyes locked into her mentor as if she were about to make a kill. But no anger or anticipation clouded the shecats eyes. The emotions she had locked behind layers of anger were beginning to show in the merciless depths of her hypnotizing optics. She was silent for a moment that seemed an eternity, just staring at the shecat that stood before her.
Then she broke away from the cats gaze. "Why are you doing this? A moment ago I was insulting you and you were growling remarks back. I was acting like a disrespectful kit to you, and now your trying to act like you actually care?" she sat back on her haunches, her eyes still locked on a pebble in the dirt. "I've held it down for moons, ignoring what others have said. How come you make two measly remarks and suddenly everything surfaces at once?" the question wasn't really made to be answered, but Wasppaw couldn't say anything after that. She couldn't let Novawish see her eyes either. Her eyes gave away everything that was secret. Everything that Wasppaw had worked hard to avoid.

[Winter]

ooc; Meh, I'll just wait till Amber posts. Kestrelclaw wouldn't want to intrude between Novawish and Wasp-paw =3

[[[: A.m.b.e.r]

Uwhaaa!! D: I'm sorry its taking so long to reply. D:
I have a cold even though its summer-- its weird and I know. x3

I'll reply soon, Winter, sorry for the wait. O;

[Winter]

ooc; It's perfectly fine Amber, take your time! =3 Who's on a hurry? ^____^

[[[: A.m.b.e.r]

x--a.u.t.u.m.n

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

A silence developed between herself and the tomcat standing beside her as mentor and apprentice vanished in the undergrowth.

Autumn quickly stole a glance toward his direction, her face growing hot-- how was she supposed to ask him such a sensitive question? Would he react as she does? Hissing a sharp retort then stalking away with head high in pride? What would she do then? How would she even know if she continued to stand at his side without even saying anything? Why was she even asking herself these pointless questions anyway? They were only making her more anxious.

The silence grew longer...

The calico exhaled deeply, her claws scoring the ground under her, "K-Kestralclaw...?" After a swift heartbeat she looked his way, her emerald green orbs shadowed by uncertainty and indecision. As Autumn gazed at the ShadowClan warrior her voice left. Fleeting her throat and leaving her stranded looking dumbstruck. In her mind she cursed herself for acting so stupid in front of him. What does he think of her right now? I'm just making a fool of myself, she thought miserably, her fur prickling uncomfortably.

The she-cat opened her mouth again but quickly clamped it shut, blinking nervously before edging farther away. "I-I," Autumn stuttered, searching desperately for something to say without being too vain in her approach. The she-cat shook her head slightly, giving him a exasperated look before murmuring, "I... I wanted to ask you s-something...." Autumn looked away, embarressed, and gazed into the undergrowth. "I don't know if the subject is-is sensitive to you or n-not," her voice was like a single musical note, carried on the faint breezes to the feline behind her.

He probably thinks I'm an idiot! The voice in her mind hissed.

Autumn muttered something inaudible and sat down, her lean muscules shone through her pelt as she transitioned into a sitting position. The calico knew there was business to be done but it was okay wasn't it? The badger was already dead so there wasn't much of a threat anymore, besides it was a male from the stench that came off of its body. It didn't have any kits of its own. Even still she didn't know how Kestralclaw had taken to it. He might have considered it urgent to tell Whitestar but from the way he was standing in silence moments before she had started talking, he seemed content. He even seemed at peace with everything...

His dark tabby fur blowing gently in the wind... amber eyes glowing... pride and confidence ringing around him....

WHAT?!

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more

[Moony™]

n o v a w i s h

When everything is wrong we move along
Go on, go on, go on, go on
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

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At Wasppaw’s appearance, she immediately noticed how her eyes had the hypnotic layer. She had one too. Her own eyes were a layer of ice, a set of hypnotizing ellipses. Maybe they were more alike then she thought. But right now, her eyes weren’t hypnotic. They were swimming in the currents of the past and the current, dipping in, to ruminate the memories and swimming up to apply it.

”Because... wouldn’t life be better if we were happy?” She choked out. ”If we disliked each other, would everyday go like a moment ago? Trainings?” Her eyes grew distant and she spoke softly; a voice of a forgotten stranger. ”I’ve been waiting for moons—twenty six moons to speak the truth out. Tell someone. But no one cares. Sure I told my life. But what will it do to them? What would it prove?” She paused and gulped. Seeing her voice was starting to become shaky, she relaxed, getting in control. ”I want to let it go. The past is changing me, from what I could have been. Then I found you.” If Wasppaw still stood firm, just in case, she added this, ”do you want to keep it inside?”

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

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[Bhuvana]

The shecat lifted her head slowly, her eyes flled with sorrow. "You let him go." she finally growled. Her voice was low but her eyes displayed her growng anger. "You had a chance to avenge my mothers death, and you screwed it up." Tears started to well up in her leaffall optics. "You want kindness to be passed between us,but yet you're the one that destroyed my life." She stood on all fours and took a step towards Novawish.

OOC//: She's moody and grudgeful. Nova'll get to her sooner or later [most likely sooner rather than later XD]

[Winter]

Kestrelclaw could feel the awkwardness between him and Autumn. It couldn't have been more evident. She was forcing herself to ask him something, something he wasn't really interested on hearing about. He didn't understand how his life history could possibly amuse the femcat, but, with his current genteel charisma, he just wanted to answer her question. Autumn's coment enhanced the curiosity in the tom, wondering what could possibly make Autumn think that the subject of her question could be 'too sensitive' for him to handle. His crude and vulgar nature usually made others think he was anything but sensible. And anyways, there wasn't anything sensible enough Kestrelclaw could not deal with. Autumn's assumption had insulted his ego.

'No, please, ask me' Kestrelclaw urged. The curiosity had become overwhelming. It swelled to incongruous levels as he tried to figure out what the topic was. An absurd idea hit his mind. What if Autumn was about to ask if he had a mate? The tom was handsome and he could not blame Autumn for having feelings for him. A smug smile broadened in his face. 'There really isn't anything sensitive enough that I can't cope' he goaded. Another speculation hit his mind. Maybe she was about to ask him about his tremendously startling abilities he had to tame animals, such as the badger he had just murdered. Now that was a question he'd gladly reply. For StarClan's sake, quit this abominable haughtyness... Kestrelclaw's conscience remarked, but that only made his grin expand.

[[[: A.m.b.e.r]

x--a.u.t.u.m.n

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

"No, please, ask me. There really isn't anything sensitive enough that I can't cope."

Autumn swallowed nervously before slowly bringing her glimmering green eyes to his face, "W-well... its usually very sensitive to most cats... 'specially if its-its, uhm, different I guess y-you could say." This was so unlike her! Usually she would just spit out something and get it over with but now, knowing this wasn't just a scene at Twoleg place, it was harder to say certain things. Like this for example.

Exhaling deeply she took a step toward him, forcing herself to ask this nagging question. "How-did-you-survive-rouge-taunts? I-I know this is not like me to ask stuff like this, even I'm surprised by this its just... I heard from one of the ShadowClan elders one day... that you-you were a rouge once---?"

Autumn's head dropped so that she was looking at the ground and not him any longer, "I don't know if the situation of your own was close to mine but- but I can't help but ask you... You just might be the cat who understands..." The calico feline to paused only to add a last comment, "I'm sorry if I might offend you, Kestralclaw... I know I would probably be if someone asked me a question of my past," Autumn mumbled quietly, her tail flicking anxiously.

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more

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[Bhuvana]

OOC//: For a long period of time, I will be my posts will become a lot less frequent. I'll be able to get on every now and then, but I may go days, perhaps weeks at some points, without accsess to a computer. This is because until July 15th, my mum needs the comp. to house hunt and apartment hunt. Then on the 15th, we're leaving early morning to drive to Virginia, to live in an apartment. I will reaching Virginia very late on Tuesday the 15th so I will be unable to come on then. After that, we are going to be without a computer for what I'm assuming will be a VERY long period of time. I may not get on until school starts, perhaps later. Trust me, if I can visit, I will. I promise that to you.

[Moony™]

I’m sorry for taking so long! I had a straight dead muse with lazyness. xD bah
But anyways, after writing it, I feel better x3 Bhu, have a sweet vacation. I heard that Virginia is a nice place, I hope your new house is wonderful! Have fun! <3

Also, I’ll have to write a plot summary for Novawish, because later things might get complicated. With Chipmunkpaw, as a rogue, actually coming in to the clan, revealing secrets and more drama. xD

Oh yeah, most of my most, about the "flying" thing is inspired by an awesome TV show called AIR. It's so wonderful and sad and beautiful.

n o v a w i s h

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

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Novawish flinched. What should she say? What could she say? Her eyes clouded in irritation, annoyance; to lightly match hers. Her icy eyes shined brighter, counterattacking Wasppaw’s growing anger. Her eyes whispered silently, wanting Wasppaw to realize. At last, she murmured. ”It’s not me you hate.”

Pause. Silence. Thoughts.

This wasn’t how Shadowclan worked. Sure, it was known for its bold darkness—but still . . . ”We couldn’t kill him.” Finally she muttered, out of her thoughts.

”I-if-if we killed him, or did more than just exiling him—what would happen? This isn’t how Shadowclan do things.” What would happen to Shadowclan? We may be colder than others, but it didn’t mean we kill just because he did. We have a reputation to keep.

Novawish stood firm, when Wasppaw took a step. Her eyes glinted—Wasppaw had to turn the blame on someone else. She wished she could just tell her openly, without a care:

Face the truth. Think more openly, about others and other things, out of your self. And really, don't plot for revenge. Release the anger out, it isn't quite so necessary.
Move along; get out of your past. Does your past shape your future? How about destiny?
Listen... you were a happier being when you were young. So innocent. You could fly, Wasppaw. You have wings, but you just can't fly now--but that doesn't mean the cat shouldn't exist... because it carries the memories of when it flew. And memories becomes dreams, and dreams become your future.

But she couldn't. The conversation was like scratching on hard ice that melted quite slowly despite the wait. At least, it was real.

She promised herself and to Wasppaw: she would tell her. Not directly maybe, Wasppaw had to learn. And Novawish happened to be the mentor.
If Wasppaw wasn't ready yet, she would tell first. Her life, her past, of the curse--the curse that stopped her from flying and send her falling down to earth. She would tell, she would thin the ice at least.


”I had the most wonderful friend—Chipmunkpaw. My brother. My family.” The umbrageous shadow faded from her eyes, as kindness and sadness overcame. ”One day, my parents thought he was being a bad influence. And what was that? Me being happy. Was that it? It was enough for them. My own parents, I overheard them... Chipmunkpaw was gone. No longer anymore. Exiled? Killed? And no one dared to ask and moved along, while I hid back in my own shell.” Her voice faded, her mouth still hung open, and no words came out.

M o v e a l o n g . . .
go on, go on, go on
Right back what is wrong
We m ov e a l o n g . . . .

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